where's your courtesy?

I really need to put this down before I feel the scribbling is too dated to be posted.
(12.35 am isn't that late anyway)

I was stringing these words together in my mind (I was rushing to go out today. Read : LATE), I was contemplating something like; "I don't really like KL city people" to graced the page header. Well, that is too much of a stereotyping. A lot of KL city people I know are very down to earth, and the fact, that I am half a KLites makes it some sort of betrayal. I got stuck there.

Just some thoughts I was thinking about today and much lately. I REALLY don't get it when sometimes one asks for a favour from you, you had to apologetically reply for not being able to offer any help. And the person who asked you for a favour takes it for granted that you are supposed to help, you are supposed to say sorry when you can't offer any help.

There is no basic courtesy to say; THANKS, it's okay / I'm sorry to bother you / appreciate your effort for trying to help me figure it out. But in return, he/she expects a sorry from you.

It's like when someone (accidentally) knocked you down and expect words of remorse that your small-being entwined with his/her bigger existence in this universe. -_-

It's not like I want to do certain things in exchange of words of gratitude, or some sort of material repayment of kindness. That is totally not my point. Still I would like to you to ask yourself > Do we do good in hopes of our kindness repaid? I know my answer, and that is the reason I sleep well at night.

Sadness surge my heart when I have to face these cold hearted human. (maybe cold hearted is a word too intense to display my emotions, but you get the point).
More so conflicted than sad, at most times - because I do not know if I am like them, do I think like them? Should I act like them? Society shun on those who don't act and think like them, if a majority part of society act the same way, does it make right?

True humane emotions are (sometimes) lost in this rat race. Barren and worthless.

on being inspired

Here it comes again. Time for me to yadayada about nothing.
There was this article I read in Chinese.. It was very inspiring to me at that time. I copied it somewhere, along with pinyin, read it over and over again, (almost) memorized it.

Now, it’s somewhere among my pile of papers magazines files. I cant remember much of it. Ok, I did a half hearted job at memorizing it, otherwise I can easily recite the whole thing now.

At that them, it did help me cleared my views of things I want for myself. Reading that piece, gave me that lil nudge I needed (then).

All I remember now is just half a sentence which says, 站在原地踏步.

A phrase that really reflects the situation most people are in, and many fail to see it.

At times, people complain of their own predicaments, but they remain at their comfort zone doing nothing but complain. It's like how you wanna cross the street, but you hold on tightly onto the nearest pole, not wanting to leap forward. Your heart is screaming ... i wanna be there, on the otherside, anywhere but here... and yet your hands, your legs seems to be very fixated.

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(unfinished)

just felt like saying

I came across someecards on freepeople. These cards are sarcastic , but only for those who care to smile/laugh about it. Do you have someone in mind if you ever wanna send any of these?
I have.Do check out their site.

and.. yet .. you... just stand where you are