---4.11.2015

Can't write anything here without being judged. 

It's freedom of speech for all parties so I can't comment much either. Just a way for me to let out some of my thoughts.

It's amazing to look back once in awhile to see the thoughts that came along, the path I have walked on, the footsteps, the distant scenery, the distance I've covered.

Rambling on a busy day. 

Being true

It's hard when you can't be entirely frank.
I worry about being misunderstood, misinterpreted.
Because in all of it, words fail me at times, most of the time.
The more I try to explain, the words, my thoughts get more tangled, and everyone is getting impatient.

Updates

Sorry, once again I've failed you.

I am sorry I am not writing as much. I really don't have much time for it lately. I really should get around doing it, as the process does a lot of wonders for me. Allowing me to be myself completely, 100% and listening to my inner voice.

Now that 2012 is almost coming to an end. I think I will resolute to try my best to blog more at http://fashfix.blogspot.com/ (mostly fashion stuff, if I have time to take some self glamour shots :P )

And I'll try to revisit here, once in awhile.

xo, pj

last year today

i said; i thought i was losing it... but someone told me, i already have. i couldn't agree more

hehehe
Ironically, I felt somewhat the same today. Probably it's the pre-holiday anxiety. Causing me minor stomach pain.

what did i left behind?

i left this part of me far too long to remember what i set out to do.
i left to find more but i just let it lay stagnant and then there was nothing.
i want to reconnect with my inner voice again. to hear the truth.
it just felt so distant sometimes i don't remember much.

"Look closely at the present you are constructing;
it should look like the future you are dreaming"
 - Anne Walker

Dreaming my dream....

today i've learn

about the meaning behind this quote;

A conversation is a dialogue, not a monologue. That's why there are so few good conversations: due to scarcity, two intelligent talkers seldom meet.
Truman Capote
more quotes here

many times when i am at wit's end in a conversation because i am not able to express my overloading emotions in words, not as loud, not as fast talking, not as fast thinking.

i think over my sentences, construct them in my mind and sometimes a little longer. coz i don't want to be the insensible, sarcastic, wow-look-at-how-witty-i-am (not!) / razor-tongue self lover. Those snub, yuck!

Respect your standing, and other people's views as well, if you demand any respect at all.
Just like religion. Just because you believe in one God, it's doesn't mean others' beliefs are wrong at all.

everyone's afraid sometimes

i am afraid to write, afraid to write here, in this binary vast world

i am afraid to be judged, to be judged on random pieces of thoughts i put here

it is sad that this fear has taken over me

Truman Capote once said;

Since each story presents its own technical problems, obviously one can't generalize about them on a two-times-two-equals-four basis. Finding the right form for your story is simply to realize the most natural way of telling the story. The test of whether or not a writer has defined the natural shape of his story is just this: After reading it, can you imagine it differently, or does it silence your imagination and seem to you absolute and final? As an orange is final. As an orange is something nature has made just right.

Let him know that you know best because after all you do know best.

Let him know that you know best because after all you do know best.

Some people have the tendency to challenge the opinions of others - without the effort to understand from another's perspective. THAT -- my friend, is actually called provocation. These people, they make rather irritating debaters, and never gone far in discussions, or conversations, even. Because oftentimes they frustrate themselves by being far too very very protective of their arguments. It's one thing to have heated dialogues, but to have to seal their desire to be victorious with a bitter "I don't want to talk about it anymore" or "that's your perception, not mine" only prove one's impoliteness. And a lot of times, right and wrong are not even applicable at all.

- words by kywc

Above is written by missmob it was exactly my sentiments too, far too long, far too many times I've been in situations like this, sometimes I don't care anymore. You asked, I've answered. I try not to take it to heart, but it's hard not to react, it's not everytime you can just walk out of a conversation.

When the rain is blowing in your face and the whole world is on your case, I could offer you

this song,

her voice is so superbly emotive.
Especially in this song, makes me wanna cry with her.

this song is beautifully written by Bob Dylan. Sang by Adele here, hits the right tone and heart strings.