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29122007 * 2am

i swear that i'm trying to zombified myself
ok, few more days to go before i attempt to have to live up my ny resolution to sleep earlier

what am i indulging in these late nights?

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30122007 * 3am

came back from mamak at 2am, after watching Golden Compass. was home alone. cyl n yuppie was supposed to stay over to help me overcome my fear of being alone in a big big house (oklar, not that big actually). somehow, it's my home and yet i feel insecure. was it because i am alone? or the fact that i've just live here for a little over a year? i was expecting for a long overdue girls' heart to heart chat but i just didn't have the heart to see cyl get overly tired for work the next day. and., i was tired too. i finally feel asleep at about half past 3. being alone at home, my senses are definitely heightened.. i was awaken by some sort of revving engine sounds, and a loud voice. i peered out the window trying to source the point of origin. can he see me? and then i spotted a car, parked right in front of my house. can he see me? windows down, i could see light from driver's mobile. he was on the phone, i waited until he drove away. can he see me? i waited for another few minutes, before i went back to bed. i still couldn't seep back into slumber land. many questions played in my mind before i finally fell asleep (i'm guessing 4am+)... will the car be back? why did he park right in front of my house? was he alone? ... etc,... ok i was being paranoia. i realised now that i took my parents for granted, to safeguard me and our house. Other nights, even if the alarm rang, i wouldn't even realised it, sleeping like a pig. Next day, my mom will tell me about it..