I have not been updating much lately. Not entirely in the mood, but more like there isn't enough time for much. When I have some free time, I wanna lie down and stare at the ceiling, or read a book or listen to my playlists. I hope my absense does make your heart grow fonder. but many thanks to those who are in my days constantly. And thanks to those who write about our intertwined life. Indeed, last weekend I had a blast. At a party. I was involved in organizing, well, a small simple task, that’s about it. The crowd is great. I drank a few drinks. Just enough for me to mingle with new friends. Although I was having fun, I can help to stop thinking about some doubts. Some that I may never find answers to. I guess it’s time to let it rest.

Sunday didn’t turn out quite well for me. It left me awfully perplexed. It seems like a roller coaster ride, at peak of ecstasy plummeting down. Two extremes of feeling are not easy to deal with. Often confiding in myself, I was offered an advice. I may seem reluctant to receive it, but secretly I felt grateful. Why do I seem reluctant? Because as much as I wanna embrace that philosophy, I don’t think I am made for it. I let people continue to misunderstand me, because words fail me.